Christopher,

  



  Please drop the veiled poetry pertaining to your 

anger with me. You and I NEVER MET. We talked on the 

computer. We chatted on the telephone. That was almost two

years ago and it ENDED. We were NEVER at any time, in your

word "betrothed". I was never going to come live with you. 

I must believe that you have enough of a handle on REALITY

to know that somewhere inside of you. I communicated with 

you recently on ICQ and in e-mail because I thought that 

perhaps you and I could be cordial, but I was wrong. Your

recriminations were frequent and furious. Even a casual chat 

ultimately resulted in a tirade from you about "betrayal".

No Christopher. I did NOT "betray" you. It was NOT possible 

for me to "betray" you. There was nothing between us TO 

"betray". You have got to realize that. Nothing at all.

I fell in love with a wonderful, sweet, kind and loving man

who lived right in my own "real" world. And I am with him to 

this very day. I believe you must have managed to make yourself 

believe that I was not any longer because I didn't talk much 

about him. However, I am, I have always been, and I WILL always BE.

Accept that Christopher. You can be VERY vindictive. You 

have shown that already and I acknowledge it. But it is time 

to stop now. It is time to turn your attentions elsewhere. You 

have had numerous nre "ladies of the Net"  (I am making an 

attempt at levity with that, NOT criticism) come to visit you

after amking contact initially with you on the computer. I would 

encourage you to continue looking for "Ms. Right" in whatever

way you feel that you need to. But it truly IS time indeed PAST 

TIME for you to stop thinking about, brooding about, and 

yes, even obsessing about ME. Get on with your life, allow your

poetry to take on a NEW emphasis, and center you "world" in 

another direction. This is not 1995, it is not 1996. It IS 1997

and you can not live in what you believe was genuine "history". 

No. You most assuredly can not. Be good to yourself. Move On. 

And Do It Now. 

I truly am sorry that I was made to feel by you that I had do

"say" these things to you in such a "public" forum. Truly.

I hope that you will find a way to manage your desire for 

"revenge" in a lesser manner. You have not done so before, but 

I truly DO believe that you CAN. But Christopher......Will you?

Please.....at 49 years of age, be mature enough to. You owe that

to yourself. Indeed you do.

I wish you only well.

No Name

(That YOU know, will do.)