I shivered for a half-hour, after we got off the phone

As the realization hit me - from now on, I'd be alone

And my body shook so hard with that full acceptance

My front teeth were left somewhere quite unpleasant



Halfway down my throat, and almost into my stomach

There they sat chattering, as words formed quite fat

For there was so much I wanted to say to you, but that

- Stunt you pulled, left me nowhere to go, so I doffed hat



And placed the phone down after quietly saying goodbye

Wanting so much to end this extremely complex, large lie

For you filled me so full of richness over the last few days

Just in order to trip me up, now - leaving me in this haze



The realization I was nothing more to you than wonderlover

Hurt me so deeply, I started to cry, silently, under the covers

For I've been down this road so many times before in the past

And I'd hoped the search was over, and you'd be the very last 



But the shivers which wracked my body told me it just wasn't so

For you'd finally made your position as clear as the driven snow

I was just an interim fling to you until you could get on right track

And now you have clearly told me ... to him you are going back



And the tears which fall from my sad eyes do now wet my shirt

As the fleeting beauty of your love drifts away from me, as I hurt

And moisture runs onto the keyboard and slows down my typing 

As the pain felt, shoots through my heart, now you're done sniping



And arms which I had held around you, just a few short hours ago

Now ache with the empty pain I feel, now there is no heart to glow

And the emptiness shares with the silence in this lonely dark of fear

For now you've finally decided ... I know there'll be even more tears



- Tristram



Christopher W. Thomas

11:10pm January 7th, 1997