Loving Without Apology



Intense desire comes from a part

Of ourselves which we see as heart

But it is a feeling below this organ

Which stirs us and makes us run



Sometimes it sends us into arms

Of someone who's given us charm

Other times it sends us well away

Because of pain which makes us pay



In ways we find uncomfortable to be

Because we didn't trust or really see

The person we had entrusted love to

Because we chose not to talk it thru



And then we make the decision to run

Instead of really talking about the fun

Which we shared over many months

In which we loved so easily, at once



Being so comfortable with each other

Sadness was completely lost under covers 

As we cavorted, and played with our love

And felt so high, we shone from above



As the beams and twinkles shone from eyes

And we forgot who we were under the disguise

As we loved so freely and without any constraint

The wonder we were - paired with no complaint



And then things happened which stopped us in tracks

For some of them befuddled us so, we faded to black

And then we forgot the awe which made us stride so

Because of the weariness we felt as we hit pillows



And so we took command in a way which pained

The other one who shared our heart without stain

And in a single beat - indicated it was all a guise

For we could not go on with it - what a surprise!



And then LOVE - which had been so bandied about

Became something else - and not any joyous shout

And so we inflicted mortal pain on a heart so true

Which now realizes there'll no longer be me and you



- tristram

3:30pm Wed Dec. 17th, 1997